I'm such a procrastinator and I forget about everything...it's who I am. I wish I could have taken the time to document everything, but this year is by far has been the busiest and fastest year yet. Was this even an entire school year? Because it has already come to a close, the only thing remaining is the actual graduation (1 week from today). Yeah yeah, everyone told me that High School would fly by, but I had no intentions just how serious they meant by that. Wow. It honestly baffles me that I'm about to graduate. I still feel like a kid, how could I be going off to college in nearly 4 months?! That's insane! I just got my acceptance into NSU, and am awfully proud to say that it is where I will be attending in the fall. I still remember, back in 8th grade, it was the day that everyone's response letters from SJA, CHS, and SMHS were delivered. I hopped off of the school bus at the corner of my street and looked up to see my mom at the end of our driveway, waving a big white packet in the air and I immediately started sprinting down the sidewalk, I remember jumping over the small tree branches and dodging pine-cones as my backpack bounced up and down against my back. It honestly feels like that was just the other day. But look at me now, simply one week away from standing with my cap and gown accepting my diploma.
It's going to be crazy...moving off into a dorm with no one that I know. I won't be able to go to Nikki's whenever I feel like it, or go grab sushi with all of friends, or go to Sunday masses with my mom. I'll be all on my own. I mean yeah, I guess an hour isn't too bad, but it sure will be quite a change. But maybe change is good. Maybe I need this. I want to see who I am to become, with a fresh start. A new school, new environment, new people, new schedule. No one will know who I am, or my background, or the reputation from my school. I get to start over, not that there's really anything that I need to leave behind, but just something fresh. I have to say, it's going to be exciting being able to sit alone at a coffee shop with some books and studying and maybe have some Chinese take-out in my dorm. My graduation present from my mom already came in the mail, yes, my very own Keurig! It's so adorable and I just can't wait to use it.
Like I said, moving away from my friends is going to be so difficult. They're all going to the same college, except for me. Watching their lives through my phone screen is going to be devastating, they're going to be moving on without me. Guess I'll have to be all social and awkward again to meet a good set group of friends. So much has been going on with my group of friends which I obviously am not going to get all into. All I have to say is that it is time for everyone to grow up and decide who you want to be and who you want to surround yourself with. After lots of reflecting, I have come to realize that I am going to miss the memories more than I will miss the people, as horrible as that sounds. I just don't know what I'll do without Nikki and Jake by my side. Here's to a hopefully good future.
